The first and the last

I'm truly hope that my x-best friend don't ever interupt my life anymore,
I think that I have freedom with all this friend now...
I'm happy with them,
But she was so close to them,
She knew them before I did,
They were closer...
And beginning,I thought I will feel alone in this class for two years...
But thank god I found them,
Like a friendship as puzzle found out their places,
They care about me,they talk to me when I lonely,they didn't angry when I did something wrong,weather they are pretenting or they truly are,I also truly trust in them...
I didn't ever trust my friends 100% before,
Because I didn't knew them well,example my x-best friend,she treated me as her best friend for just 2 day we knewing each other...
Painful memories...
Why I didn't finding friends in group but to find a personality best friend...
Was that fate?!
I don't care,I just care what I have now,
Protect the friends that I having now...
I scare to trust in friend,even if they had promise me,
Because my friends before secret5recipe betrayed me,
Not once,not twice but many,
Until I can't even counted...
Since the first time they done it,
I forgive them,
But they just can't keep it down...
They all are a bunch of friends that never been hurted by their friends...
 the first and the last...
The last time that I trust them,
The last time they fool me,
We broke up...our friendship,
I was just been promise by a friend of mine that we'll not lie to each other,
I promise,and he wanted me to join him for a game the next day,
When the day we must met,
He called me to said that to cancalled our date,
Because he'll not at his house at afternoon,
Then I cancelled with my x-best friend and others...
At the same time I promise to join my dad for dinner seminar,
Then I made up all the stuff,waiting my dad to fetch me,
My x-best friend called me and said that they at the field already,
Then I said I had told them not to come,
And they said they got
 saw him at the field,
I say that I will ask him,
When I called him,he said that he didn't at the field,At some where else,
Then I called back to my x-best friend,they asked me got called him or not,I said yes,
And she told me that he cycle away after answering the phone,
I was angry,he just promise me and broke up the promise haven't just one day!!!
I wrap off all the stuff I prepare and cycle to the field,
I saw him after me when I was there,
I really though that he was really ran away and follow me,
And when I found my friends,they told me that they were just joking...
For god sake!!!
I scold him and wanted him to came to the field from where he really at,
My friends also saying that they got said they were just joking when we were talking on phone,
I said I didn't heard,if they really got tell,why don't they call the person on phone to tell me,why must tell at so far away and didn't sure about weather I got heard or not,or else can call me for comform that I heard,
They just setting a act like they had told me,but I'm sure they didn't said it,
I was upset and cried out,
Not because they fool me,
Is because I though I being fooling by the friend that just gave me his word,
But turn out wrong,
I'm been fooling by my x-best friend and other that saying he was fooling me.
In a complicated situation,
I was upset,and I told them I maybe will having a car crush when I'm on my way to go home,
And my other friend tell him that I was cursing them will having a car crush on their way home...
DAMN It...
He didn't talked with me anymore after that day,and also my other friends,because gossip that I'm cursing them to having a car crush...
I will drag my self to have it if I'm cursing my friends to having car crush.
I treat my friends first and myself will be the second,but why I always be the one who will been hunted down...
Will it be the last time I being hunt down?
Hoping that will be the last...

-bestest wishes for secret5recipe-
Timberland