My attitude b4 meeting them

Maybe you would thought that secret5recipe was a gang...
Or "secret recipe" ==
But sorry to burst your bubbles...
We're not.
I was a girl before,that didn't care other's feeling,
Except for the friends I need them,
I was a selfish girl,I think,
But my friends didn't told me that I was selfish before,
Because they didn't feel,
When I knowing other friends,
They told me that they really hate me,before,
They said many things about me,
Then only I recognize myself...
What kind of person I am,
Why didn't my friend told me that...
I felt guilty for the people I treated bad,
And I started to improve,
Tried to talk with some friend that treated me well at front,but hates me at the back...
I think they now didn't hate me so much anymore...
In secret5recipe's member,
I think I'm the most untalent one,
Because others are really hard working,
I didn't thought out how much their talent are,
But I'm just think that they are clever,
They are very intelligent at many places,
I'm not,
1-2 years earlier,I got many friends,but how ever my result came out good or bad,
No one would ever care about my result,
I'm usual after all,(because I'm just holding on first and second place only)
Cannot drop down lower result...
My friends always just blame my result,
Asking me why don't let them copy my answers,
I already gave them much,
Until I gave away all my marks,
I got the same marks as my friend,
But the paper they are holding was filling with all my answers... 
I just can only watching my friend saying how much they got and never care about saying a thank you for the person who gave them answers...
I got friends,
But I feel alone...
I just got my only best friend that talks to me,but she also didn't care for any my other things,very annoying she'll said...
Maybe they think that I didn't have to worry about my result,
I am once told by my friend,have I enough enjoying my life with the first place easierly,can I let him to be first at the next coming test...
I always got high on my percentage marks,
I took more marks on the subject that I knew them well,
To fill up the marks that I lost on other paper...
I'm happy I enter to this class,maybe there's some of the student in there I don't like them,
But I am also being honor that I'm a student in that class,
And Because I got them,
I'm happy I have them to be my best friend...

Timberland