My Bad Attitude

i realize that i have changed..
my attitude and the way i speak..
last time i wont say bad words to people especially my friends
but now...i say it...tons of time..
i guess it can be help right..?
most people tend to say these bad words when their angry or upset..
sometimes it just slip from our tongue..
just like me..
there was once my friends kicked my school till outside the door..
i was angry obsviously..
i wanted to say what the heck!then suddenly it came out what the fuck!
he was so surprised and shocked..and straight away return my shoes..
i myself was shocked..
i didnt know how the word came out from my mouth...
what was i thinking!?
i kept saying sorry to him and say i didnt mean it..
then i always say bad words..
i dont know why i suddenly became like that..
maybe its because of me kept hearing my friends saying it and it spread to me like a virus..
then as for my attitude...
its weird though..
i wanted to be a better and good person..
but everytime i wanted to be good i became bad..
why is that?
me,myself also dont know why?
now i sometimes just cant get a grip of myself..
i played cards with my friends and i lose several times..
i got mad..there was like a huge fire behind me..
i guess its because i think its kinda no fair..
they got helpers and we dont..
i wanted to scold them..saying just let them played themselves la!something like that la..
but i didnt cause its kinda rude and bad to me..
my friends see my expression and they look kinda scared..
i wanted to changed to normal mode but i was full of rage..
its stupid right..
i was because of some cards game i loss several times..
so guys i just want to say this:
please forgive my for my behavior..
and hope that you can excuse me..
am really really sorry guys..
i will try my best to keep control of my mood,anger and etc..
also,please tell me if am being overreactive or bad..
so that i can know and change..
thanks ya..
and am really really sorry..
o also this is to the members of secret5recipe..
please please write something on our blog..
is like going to die and empty..
no offense k..
hope u guys do something about it!!

LE SPORTSAC