今天，我想起了一件事情，
今年初时，我从我班上同学的手里拿到了一封信，是我和她还有另外两个人所签的合约「好友合约」•••
那是我第一次签这种合约的，里面写了很多我们要原谅对方，不要妒嫉对方，不要忘记对方•••的话。
虽然我不是很记得内容，因为那张合约不是我收的。我在今年初再次碰到那张合约，这次并不是要签什么约了，是来要求我毁约的•••他们将那张合约折对半，在外面写着，「此人碰到这封信后就在此毁约！」虽然看也知道是那个恶婆婆写的啦，可是他居然敢写出这种威胁性的话啊！
后来我去问＂她＂为什么要写到这样的话，＂她＂说自己没有写到，这样算了，我又问她为什么一定要拿给我毁约，自己丢掉就可以了嘛，为什么要给我过目•••?
她居然说她没有，是恶婆婆他们要看，然后看啊看啊，不知道为什么会传到给我的，可是如果我没有看错的话，我看见你在我面前丢了我的回复信•••
如果我告诉你事实，你一定会说我就是不够信任，所有你才要跟我绝交，我因为不要再惹事了，所以我很多事也没有讲，就因为没有惹事，我就要让那些惹事的人露出尾巴•••
不过•••算了，算在我自己不够认识你的份上，我们就这样结束了，因为对你们来说，毁约的人是我，但是对我来说不遵守诺言的人是你们，所以我现在才过地去•••我可以分辨出我现在和以前跟你在一起的心情，你会说我对你太严格了，但是对我来说，你自从和恶婆婆一起回家后，我一天比一天害怕，就算你跟我说没事的，或是说要计划事情，就算你说要计划我的生日会，你和他会每天在一起，我都宁愿不要庆祝，而你却在去年底时跟我说了「我宁愿不要认识到你！」你这句话是把人的心往地狱丢，你说你种我说「你这种人」后就讨厌我了，我下很大的决心才敢写的，我写的原因不是因为你还没买礼物给我，那只是借口，我也懂你一定会买礼物给我啊，可是在那种情况下，只能找恰当的话题开始，我才找礼物的借口，我会讲「你这种人」是因为你要我顾着裕莲，然后你就跟那个恶婆婆去买礼物•••我是什么？我是你的好朋友叻，但你却跟他去，过了我讲「你这种人」后，你就说因为你们懂只有我能顾他，因为他会听我的话，我只是妒忌，可是你还没想开我说「你这种人」的那句话•••
在我们绝交时，你说想等波浪停后才跟我好回，可是一波未平，另一波又起，说我因为成绩底过你，又生你的气，我不懂是你自己篇的还是听别人讲的，可是我连自己当时第几名都不懂，我要怎样不爽？我以前会跟你比成绩是因为你是我朋友，我也把你当对手，可是跟你吵架后，我就没有管我的名次了，信不信由你•••
而我现在的心情呢，没有了那个恐惧，因为现在我哪一个也不会失去，因为我每个都想保护。虽然也有可能其中的会离开，不过我不会再有像和你在这么多的误解下分开了•••
Timberland
2009年10月26日星期一
Freedom
When I just can't find my way,
You are always there for me,
When I am out on my way,
You are always there for me.
Like a bird in the sky,
You set me free you give me one heart,
Like a star in my night,
You always be a part of me.
In my darkness dream,
I hear you call me,
You give me the reason to live,
In my dirty heart,
I hear you call me,
And you reach out to carry me away.
No one can save my soul, only you.
You are my stories,
Unread stories,
When I gazed at your eyes,
I can see an unknown country,
Stories with their doors opened,
Stories that won't ever close again.
Now we've come so far from darkness,
And will never be apart,
So we leave for tomorrow,
To start our lives again.
Find me there, my tiny feathers,
Of my holy ancient days,
You will calm all my sadness,
And ring your song,
Only for me.
And I'll sing my song,
Only for you.
Timberland
You are always there for me,
When I am out on my way,
You are always there for me.
Like a bird in the sky,
You set me free you give me one heart,
Like a star in my night,
You always be a part of me.
In my darkness dream,
I hear you call me,
You give me the reason to live,
In my dirty heart,
I hear you call me,
And you reach out to carry me away.
No one can save my soul, only you.
You are my stories,
Unread stories,
When I gazed at your eyes,
I can see an unknown country,
Stories with their doors opened,
Stories that won't ever close again.
Now we've come so far from darkness,
And will never be apart,
So we leave for tomorrow,
To start our lives again.
Find me there, my tiny feathers,
Of my holy ancient days,
You will calm all my sadness,
And ring your song,
Only for me.
And I'll sing my song,
Only for you.
Timberland
Away
Far in the light, I can see it,
In every scene of the night,
A tiny feather of love.
I gotta go,
Destiny never finds the way for me,
Even in the night I see your face, in the dark,
So I never lose my way on you,
The light is always there with you.
Time goes by,we can never stay the same,
Now we've come so far from our memory,
Though your smile has gone, then we will never be apart,
In our heart we are one from our memory,
The future arrives with your love.
Willing to go to a place,
Where you and I will never meet,
I'll be there.
Willing to find an answer,
in all the winding road we have come through,
Why we'll end up this,
But you don't wish to understand.
In the shade of hope,in our memory,
We can hear still our melody now,
But the future still shines, close to you.
I believe... I relieve...
In my heart...
Timberland
In every scene of the night,
A tiny feather of love.
I gotta go,
Destiny never finds the way for me,
Even in the night I see your face, in the dark,
So I never lose my way on you,
The light is always there with you.
Time goes by,we can never stay the same,
Now we've come so far from our memory,
Though your smile has gone, then we will never be apart,
In our heart we are one from our memory,
The future arrives with your love.
Willing to go to a place,
Where you and I will never meet,
I'll be there.
Willing to find an answer,
in all the winding road we have come through,
Why we'll end up this,
But you don't wish to understand.
In the shade of hope,in our memory,
We can hear still our melody now,
But the future still shines, close to you.
I believe... I relieve...
In my heart...
Timberland
No now
I don't really like boys right now, I think now still not a right time, but I just know my target...must know well in musician, like piano or violin, something like this, don't know when will suddenly appear...
But to me, I think i'm still too young, so I don't wish to separate with my friend, they will just be my side once in a life time, if I did something that will let me regret... I won't ever forgive myself...
Finally I get rid of some stone, I didn't think much for now...
This year end test, is damn hard ! But I can 51% sure I maybe still will be in the same class next year...
Still with "secret recipe" ...
Hope there's nothing will interrupt me next year,
I felt lucky I'm in this class, that's my chance to let go many many many of the pressure that hanging around me, I cannot go other upper class or lower class, because the trouble maker are separated at all the class, still one class they didn't in... The last, well... They didn't at there but why do I ! So I didn't excape from two person that I hate but same class with me, I had accept my fate, and now are them, I will not same class with them next year... Maybe will, but make sure I am still at the first class...don't drop...
I will feel freedom when our exam have pass, happy... I usually like exam before, but I didn't like them since PMR, I think that's because I start concertrate in my exam now...
Tired now... And get ill always...
But I think just because I try many tricks to see the answer so tired... Haha...
Timberland
But to me, I think i'm still too young, so I don't wish to separate with my friend, they will just be my side once in a life time, if I did something that will let me regret... I won't ever forgive myself...
Finally I get rid of some stone, I didn't think much for now...
This year end test, is damn hard ! But I can 51% sure I maybe still will be in the same class next year...
Still with "secret recipe" ...
Hope there's nothing will interrupt me next year,
I felt lucky I'm in this class, that's my chance to let go many many many of the pressure that hanging around me, I cannot go other upper class or lower class, because the trouble maker are separated at all the class, still one class they didn't in... The last, well... They didn't at there but why do I ! So I didn't excape from two person that I hate but same class with me, I had accept my fate, and now are them, I will not same class with them next year... Maybe will, but make sure I am still at the first class...don't drop...
I will feel freedom when our exam have pass, happy... I usually like exam before, but I didn't like them since PMR, I think that's because I start concertrate in my exam now...
Tired now... And get ill always...
But I think just because I try many tricks to see the answer so tired... Haha...
Timberland
2009年10月16日星期五
今天不懂如何形容我的心情…
今天早上明明上国文节时还好好的…
不懂为什么中午上SIVIK节时老师竟然崩溃的哭了…
当我们问老师时…
老师只是静静的…没有回答什么…
只是叫我们回自己的坐位…
唉…
算了…不跟她计较…
另外一件事情是…
在我留校要回家时…
（☃和xo也有留校啦）…
我看到☃,XO和她的男朋友从另外一个方向走了过来…
我也没有管她们这么多…我看到☃哭了…
不懂为何…在那时候我竟然有心痛的感觉…真的好辛苦…
同时我有我一股冲动想过去安慰她…
不过我看到那个XO在那里…我就觉得☃已经不需要我了…她已经有XO可以安慰她…我无何必自讨没趣去安慰她…
之后…
我们三个人就上车…
我就装作什么都不知道，听着歌…
不过不时有她哭泣的声音传到我的耳朵里…看着她哭泣，我也觉得很辛苦…我真的好痛苦…若是以前，我或许还能安慰她…
我们就这样…一直到她的家…她下车…进了门…我走了…
就是这样…
唉…
LV...
05/08/2009
今天早上明明上国文节时还好好的…
不懂为什么中午上SIVIK节时老师竟然崩溃的哭了…
当我们问老师时…
老师只是静静的…没有回答什么…
只是叫我们回自己的坐位…
唉…
算了…不跟她计较…
另外一件事情是…
在我留校要回家时…
（☃和xo也有留校啦）…
我看到☃,XO和她的男朋友从另外一个方向走了过来…
我也没有管她们这么多…我看到☃哭了…
不懂为何…在那时候我竟然有心痛的感觉…真的好辛苦…
同时我有我一股冲动想过去安慰她…
不过我看到那个XO在那里…我就觉得☃已经不需要我了…她已经有XO可以安慰她…我无何必自讨没趣去安慰她…
之后…
我们三个人就上车…
我就装作什么都不知道，听着歌…
不过不时有她哭泣的声音传到我的耳朵里…看着她哭泣，我也觉得很辛苦…我真的好痛苦…若是以前，我或许还能安慰她…
我们就这样…一直到她的家…她下车…进了门…我走了…
就是这样…
唉…
LV...
05/08/2009
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