friends..what are they exactly??

this has been going inside my head for a long time..
what is the meaning of frens??
are they a companion who is always beside u when u need them?
or..
are they jus a fren who just used u for their benefit??a tool to them??
or..
a person who treats u as one of their family??
i dont know..
what u guys think about this??
its been a blur to me now,
cause my frens who are so called my bestest frens(in the past)sometime dont really treat me like one of their frens..
sometimes when i try to speak to them..no one bother or listen,
so i'm always been throwed to one side,with no one beside me,only my shadow..
it is weird sometimes..
one day they chat with me..the next day i was throwed into a corner again..
its this a weird routine going on?
do they just suddenly chat with me and the following day,they just ignore me,
it was hard to get used to it and i know i hate it..
its was like am a torch light or a siloutte..
so everytime i was alone..minding my own bussiness..
soon i became acustom to being alone,
but sometimes there was like a sword that kept reching towards my heart when i looked at my frens,chatting,laughing and having fun with each other..
it was hurtful by looking at them..
i always thought i will always be alone with no frens with me..
i accepted a long time ago..
but..
now i'm very happy and glad that GOD has given some wonderful frens who is always there when i need em..that i can count on..who help me and care for me..
i was always filled with joy and happiness when am with them..
those frens are..
Gucci,Billabong,Timberland, and LV..
thx guys!!u guys are the most wonderful things that had happen to me..
I LUV U GUYS!!(dont worry i'm not lasbian)lol,
because of all of u,i finally realise what frens really are..
they are people who u can count on,those who wont betray u,those who care about u,
and also those who luv u and treats u as a real fren..
there many more i want to say but i stop here for today..
frens are important..without them who knows what will happen to u..

LE SPORTSAC

friends

i feel unlucky i have a bad friends..
i think they all won't do bad thing 4 me
but they also do it...
i also think when i not same class v them
our friendship wil stil have
but now i feel our friendship is finish already
i always ask u(T.Y.Y) wait 4 me when rehat time
but u never wait 4 me..
u let me 1 people rehat....
did u know how the feeling when u rehat time is 1 people...
the feeling is not good..
when ur friend(T.L.Y)never come to skul
only u wil find me to rehat v u
u feel me is who...ur toys(sorry i'm not ur toys)
i feel stupid 4 my ownself
y always u all do this unhappy things 4 me
i can forgive u all....i'm a stupid person..
now right i meet my new friend
they are LV,BILLABONG,TIMBERLAND,LE SPORTSAC
i feel happy when i meet them
n feel happy have this good & friendly friend....
sure now i know u all saw me got friend already
only wan 2 find me back v u all....
i really don't know wat u all think about it....
pls stop this game i feel tired liao..
always i'm sad u all don't know bcs i keep it in my heart
pls don't hurt me...i really don't like this feeling...
don't know how 2 say u all liao
i really really feel tired liao....
always i think back i sure wil cry but u all cant feel it..
i really feel happy i got my good friends now(secret receipe)...
pls don't hurt me like they all do it..
friendship forever secret receipe....
thx for u all secret receipe...muackss...hehehe
i hope i can always be happy..
n also hope my friends(secret receipe)can happy forever.....
i wish u all...

gucci

after a thousand nights

I want to be loved, but you don't seem to love me
I'm wandering aimlessly within this repetition
And the answer I found is only one; that even if I'm scared, even if I'm hurt
I'll say "I love you" to the person I love

Do you love me? Do you not love me?
As for things like that, it's fine either way
No matter how much I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That's right, and simply the reality which says that I love you
Is the truth because it can't be changed by anybody.

I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell you
There's something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don't seem to love me
I'm wandering aimlessly within this repetition
And the answer I found is only one; that even if I'm scared, even if I'm hurt
I'll say "I love you" to the person I love
Putting these feelings into words is such a scary thing
But I'll say "I love you" to the person I love

In this wide world, I can't express the joy of encountering you with words very well huh...
That's why we smile,
And sing do-re-mi in the autumn filled with vivid colors
With winter at our backs, waiting for the sunlight shining through the leaves in spring
To become born anew, in a way that we're able to protect someone

When I turn back at the road I came from and the way ahead, I always had the eyes of a coward
I want to face you, but I can't be honest
As for the days I repeated not being able to straightforwardly love the other,
I hated being alone
The me of that day seemed to love in a uninjured way.

Even if these feelings aren't returned, saying "I love you" to the person you love
That is the most beautiful thing in the world

LE SPORTSAC

今天所发生的事情是好还是坏呢？

今天我在学校竟然发现了一件事...
那就是...
知道gucci有喜欢的人了...
呵呵...
我是不是很坏...^^
因为知道我的好友有喜欢的人，我就觉得很高兴...
我自己也不懂为什么这样高兴...
当我知道的时候，我就一直去问她，他叫什么名字,又问她，他长得怎样啦等等...
但...
她一直都不要讲给我听...
她不要讲给我听也是有她的理由...
因为她很害羞...
在那个时候她整个脸都红起来了...
真的是可爱极了...
哈哈...
我觉得我还变态...^^
可是...
这件事不只是我一个知道...
Lv和Timberland比我还要早知道...
其实我会知道这件事是我无意间在她们的谈话中听到的这件事的...
我觉得...
如果在那时候我没听到的话...
我可能到以后也不懂这件事情...
因为她们一定不会告诉我的...
我认为不只是这件事而已...
我觉得还有很多事也瞒着我，不跟我说...
我其实很想知道她们为什么要瞒着...
为什么不要跟我讲...
我真的很想知道...
因为我感觉我好像不是她们的一分子...
其实不只是我只是我一个罢了...
Le sportsac也是跟我一样...
但...
我到现在都没去问她们到底是为什么...
因为...
我觉得她们有自己的烦恼吧...
不想再连累我们吧...
还有就是如果她们要讲给我和Le Sportsac的话...
她们一定会讲的...
所以我们选择等待...
慢慢的等待...
她们总有一天一定会讲的...
等待的时间也一定不会很久...
如果她们当我们是好朋友，好伙伴的话...
呵呵...
写完了咯...
观众们,如果是你们的话，你们觉得今天所发生的事情是好还是坏呢？
我很想知道答案...
因为这个问题我根本答不出...
可能是有好也有坏吧...
一半一半啦...
你说是吗？^^


Billabong

Friendship forever...

There's no day that won't break,
Even if darkness surrounds it heartlessly,
While I'm still incomplete, I'll slash it apart,
There's no day that won't end,
Even if I'm worried about the absurdity of today,
The flame of my chest is here and it doesn't seem to extinguish...
I live within the fire,
I'll overcome that wall...
Say goodbye to the uncomfortable days
And go confirm that meaning...
A long journey is waiting, we'll vow to each other
Defy the time that sleeps at the edge of the flickering heavens, and advance to it...
Even if an inextinguishable fire dances,
Even if I get lost in the darkness and writhe in agony due to tomorrow's infinity...
The wheel of life continues
Our existence is our steel
Now I'll put wings on things that I want to protect
And go recover my dignity
We'll combine this moment on the long journey
And go answer that it's the ability to jump and fly from the gravity of destiny
At the end of our long journey, we'll meet again
And I'll shine and advance to the moment coming around, when the sea of clouds and tears clear away...
Friendship forever...

Timberland

不守信用的朋友

那天早上...
是☃说要去7-11找她的男朋友...
我和☠陪她去...到了那边,我们找不到他...
原本打算回学校...
哪里知道...
你们却说要去'喝茶'...
ok...我让你们去...
是你们自己答应我说会在8点之前回来...
是你们自己亲口答应我的...
可是到最后你们却没有守承若回来学校...
害我在学校傻傻地等你们回来...
那天我一个人下课...
你们知道吗...?
一个人在走廊走来走去...
这种感觉真的很难受...
放学了...
你们却好像若无其事地走来...
隔天, ☠叫❀来跟我讲sorry...
来跟我解释昨天的事情...
原本我打算原谅☠...
哪里知道☠叫❀来跟我讲说其实昨天不是你要pt的,是☃说要陪她男朋友不想去学校...所以你才会陪☃去...还说你不可能让她一个人在那边...
难道你就可以丢我一个人在学校吗...
我告诉你...这只是一个借口,不是理由...
你是一个很自私的人...
你可以为了自己而把责任丢给别人...
到了放学,☃告诉我...其实那天你自己也是要留在那边...不是☃叫你陪她...
这令我很生气...
每一次我要原谅你时,你每都弄一些东西出来让我生气...让我觉得厌烦...
是你让我们的关系变成这样的...
我们还是'从朋友变成陌生人'...
这或许对我们都好...


Lv

Afternoon tea

A fine day for an afternoon tea...
A fine day to relax and also a day to be fun...
Lonely when we aren't standing with our friends...
I'm alone when I don't know you all,
I won't recognize you all if I wasn't alone...
So when i'm alone,I will always remember you all...
Do you like something to drink?
A cup of Toffy Latté and a slice of short cake for each at the afternoon,isn't start promote a new cup of drink?maybe we can also try a cup of royal coffee for taking time in our conversation...
Listening to the sound blowing wind,the voice from birds that jumping at the field,dancing.
Hope there's no rain today,it will ruining this lovely afternoon...
As same as friendship,hoping that nothing would ruining this friendly friendship...
Would you like another cup of drink?

Timberland 

朋友到底是什么？

你...
认为朋友是怎样的呢？
我以前一直认为朋友是人们最好的伙伴...
但...
在这几年我竟然发现朋友只是...
其实讲真的我这几年来都不懂朋友到底是什么了...
因为我这几年所认识的朋友都好像当我是东西这样...
要我的时候就来找我...
不要我的时候就把我当透明人这样丢在一旁...
简直就像东西一样丢来丢去的...
我竟然很想讲他们...
但...
讲了也是白费...
又引起他们的火气反咬一口...
我简直跟他们牛头不对马嘴...
这样的人还叫朋友吗？
这样的人还叫伙伴吗？
我自己都不懂了...
朋友到底是什么...
但...
我现在也是有几位朋友是我在这几年较到就好的朋友和伙伴...
在我困难的时候会来帮我...
在我心情最不好的时候会来安慰我...
在我感到很孤单的时候会来陪我...
在我感到寂寞的时候就会来找我聊天...
所以我现在真的很高兴和感谢神在我不懂要怎样面对问题的时候献给了我...
虽然我还是不懂朋友是什么...
但...
我真希望这个答案会是从这几位朋友的身边找到的...
这几位朋友是Lv,Gucci,Timberland and Le sportsac...


Billabong

I didn't regret...

I never realize there are many other friends except my best friend,never notice that leaving her will be more happy,I only think that I don't wish to leave her...
But I never ever realize that she will leave me,alone...
Some friends...
She's the one I like most...
But she left as I was in the midder of road...
The road that you didn't see anything in the sky when you're looking up...cloud that black in colour,seeing nothing infront your eyes...
Just tears...
She had left me,I still think she was just kidding,angry for just a few days and then get back together again...
But...
She didn't...
I been fooling myself for half year and more...
Half year later I was being invite by her for a movie...
I though I have the chance to know the true from her,why she left me...why she picking the time like that...
But she was just wanted to get close to know what I'm doing now and maybe finding some gossip or whatever to talk about it...
The tears pours out...
Am I thinking too much of it,I think so...
The month before our big test was going to start...
I had been hurt by her...deep...
I was crying and begging for her to forgive me what I had did...
She didn't want to look straight to me...
When her friend (they were my friends,before) said a word "don't" I been hunt down...
She turn away,with them who called themselves FRIENDS...
I also tried to phone her,she told me not to disturb her because she was prepare for her test...
Was that my fate...
She was disturbing me at the time like that,and I am only allow to shut my mouth up on her...?!
What a ridiculous plan was that...
Well...
Now that I only realize there are many friends beside me...
I am happy...
All my friends may have been hurt by their friend before,
Suffer and hide the pain...
Maybe just a few of us,but I'm happy they are my friends...
Better than just sticking with the only friend,I like the feeling of freedom much...
I'm happy I have them...
I also been happy when I'm with her,although now we had brake up...
Thank you all...my friends...
Members of secret5recipe ...

Timberland

The war of friendship

At 1/8/2008,
That was the war world First in my life,
I always think that I was the most luckiest person in the world,
Because I have a bunch of friends,at 2007.
I was happy because I had them,
The same meaning as time flies when happy moment...
When the relation of me and my friends became closer,happen the same act when god trying to vanquish human because the reason human had evil in earth,
But...I'm the only person...
It was a very terrible memory for me,
I have been gossip that I had a complicated relationship with a boy,
But that was just gossip,why can't any one believe me!!!
I don't like him and I was regretable that I know him,if I wasn't being a friend to him,
Maybe I would never had that war world in my life,
Because of him,I had frost on her,I didn't even spoke with her whole day,that's why she left me...
When can time runs back?
If I have a second chance to done it right,
I won't give up...
Times flies,almost going to pass a year since we had that fight,
In the beginning,I was just having a fight with her,
Then don't know why my other friends also started to frost at me,too weird...
Then she SMS me said that her friend say to her that I scold them...
DAMN IT...I didn't even spoke to them how could I scold them,I didn't even know when was the last time I talk with them...
I knew,I knew my friend wanted to grap my best friend from me,
I asked her before,she said didn't,I realize how could she tell the true to me,
Now she done it,she got my best friend,she got my other friends and others,I have nothing left...
Then I met new friends at 2009...
now I realize that I much liked my friend at this year,
I don't wish to lost it again,
Not anymore...

Timberland

Today,I so happy...cause today I went to jj with Timberland,Nicci,Gucci,An An and kaa hoo...
Yeah...this is the first time I go out with my friends,
We went to GreenBox ktv and we also went to cinema for movie,we watched HARRY POTTER and THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE...that movie very nice loh...I like it....
Haha...but got people cannot go also...like the 's.m.k batu unjur dog'...haha...and LE SPORTSAC...
Hoping that we can go out again,
Next time more fun...

LV

The friend that I wish her to know the true and forgive me

On a world in my heart,
I can't find a friend like you,
when I have finally found you,
I have the best friendship in my life,
but you have left me...
Because of the gossip from the others,
I have fun,when I'm with you...
But I haven't notice that we will be ending like this,
if I have that chance to let you trust me what I had say is true,
I will do it...
But after the new year have came,
you didn't even trust me even I had told you,
I think that that's the end for us,
because the friend that I recognize at the beginning,
have change...
Change of heart,kindness, and also emotion.
I had enough of it...
Please gone from my mind,
the friend that I knew have been eat by the new her,
so I begin for trying to abandon this friend,
Now that she also like to tell the others of my friend,
about gossip of me...
May the pain that I have suffer would let go...
丝...I wish you can forgive me...

Timberland

朋友

有人说。。。
朋友。。。
是你每当在家外时的支柱。。。
有人说。。。
朋友。。。
是每当你伤心或不愉快时的避风港。。。
有人说。。。
朋友。。。
就像神父一样。。。
每当你有什么烦恼时。。。
他都会在一旁静静地聆听你的不愉快。。。
当你的忠实听众。。。
也有人说。。。
朋友。。。
是在这个世界上最不可缺少的人。。。
有人说。。。
朋友。。。
事不管你有没有男/女朋友。。。
他都会永远陪伴在你的身边。。。
对你不离不弃。。。
如果真的是这样...
我们现在会搞到这样吗...?

LV...